Saturday, June 25, 2016

Life has been crazy

I haven't blog for awhile. I've been so per-occupied I can't even think of what to do first. I have been back to work since end of March and it has been stressful as it is however this time, I feel so beaten up. I feel like drowning. My baby also started daycare the moment I started work. There were some instances where I was close into pulling her off of daycare. She is now well-adjusted with Daycare but I lost my Good-night sleeper in exchange.

My little family has been struggling a lot since I went back to work, It's been really a nightmare. Reason, why I can't find a time to even sit and relax and write something up. I've been so down lately and I'm scared that I might go into depression. But one thing I'm sure is building up on me is the Anxiety.

The only thing that keeps me going is my Baby. Those moments when I look at her face her smile and just the entirety of her being alive in this world keeps me from breaking down.

In the lighter side, my baby is 5 Months Old today. Time Flies! and Hopefully, I'll be able to get back on posting more on my blog again.

Here she is now:


Thanks for stopping by and reading my short blog. =D

Monday, February 29, 2016

It was All But a Blur

This month has been a roller coaster for me there has been a lot of Adjusting, Sleep Deprivation, Taking care of a new human being and etc.

I feel so scattered-brain that I can't even focus on what to write. However, I'm hoping that I will get my groove back. Right now, my main focus is my daughter. The only time I get to relax is when she's sleeping and my mind is completely overwhelmed that I need to unwind and collect myself.

I admit it's not easy having a newborn and I have my moments and bouts of sadness but whenever I look at her it all make sense again. I guess this is what they call being a mom.

Anyway, here are some Highlights for this month and end of January:

**End of January: Our Furbaby celebrated his 3rd Bday 01.30.16
Our Furbaby, "Neo"

**02.07 - My 29th Birthday and I receive the most special gift in the world, my daughter.
**Celebrated my Birthday a week before it with my fellow Birthday Peeps, Brother-in-Law and his Wife.
**2016 is a Leap Year which means February has 29 Days.
**Lastly, my Daughter turned 1 Month Old this month. oh! how time flies. She already knows how to stare

A glimpse of my Little One:
Her First Valentines Day!
Since Newborn photo sessions was not on our budget I decided to do it myself, it may not look as good as a professional but I think it turned out great.
This is actually a smile that I first captured on my phone.
 And this is her now at 1 Month Old.



Can't believe that it has been a month since she was born in this world. Spending all the waking and sleeping hours I have with her until I go back to work. ='(

Until next time... See you all next month! =D

Friday, January 29, 2016

My Birth Story

Baby's overdue at 40 weeks + 6 Days and I was scheduled for an induction at 12:15AM (01/25).

I came in the hospital at 4CM Dilated at around 3 AM a little doze of Pitocin was started but there was no changes or labor pains at all.

At around 8AM my OB came in and broke my water almost instantly I felt some contractions. They were strong but tolerable. I was check again at 9AM and I progress to a 6. Since then the contractions began to get stronger and stronger until at around 10 AM, it was so intense that I'm starting to doubt myself. Michael was asking me if I need pain meds, although I doubted myself at that moment I stayed firm with my decision to do it naturally.

The nurse came back and check me since I was literally screaming every contractions at that point, low and behold I was a 9 1/2 cm. I told her I really feel like pushing and that the only thing that is making things very painful is because I'm holding off it off and feeling in the contractions. She called my OB and asked me to start pushing..

I started pushing at around 10ish and for some reason pushing really felt good and made the painful contractions go away.

Pushing lasted for almost an hour and at 11:15 AM "Little Miss" came out to this world screaming as they put her on my chest it felt surreal that it's almost as if I'm dreaming. I actually blurted that she's so tiny and My OB, and two nurses both said "No, She's not!"

Riley Mckenzie was Born naturally without any pain-free medication on January 25th.
Labor Duration: Around 3 Hrs
Weight: 8.1 lbs
Length: 20 1/2 Inches

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Our Little One is Born

Please welcome our Daughter, our First Born.


We are so in love and so grateful for this gift.

Thursday, January 7, 2016

It's the New Year and I'm still pregnant!

Hello Guys! Well, maybe some of you thought I already gave birth. Well, not really.. Not yet... I'm not complaining though cause I want this baby to be cooked very "well done". Although, it's taking a toll on me.

Here's my 38 Week Bump Photo that was taken last Tuesday:

It's just been really busy lately, juggling with work and preparing for the baby. I really wanted to stay at work till I "Pop" since I have no issues with this pregnancy, but it got me thinking, the type of work I have requires the files I handled to be hand-off to someone else for them to continue working on. So, today I finally decided to plan when I will be getting off considering that the baby will not come out anytime soon. Technically, my last day at work will be on the 15th. The next week I will be taking my Personal Leave since I have some paid time off left just to get me relaxing. Then the next week after that will be the start of my Maternity leave. As if, I can control this baby but I just want to ease my mind thinking about my work and the coming of a newborn.

Another thing, which I'm not a 100% sure about but I'm very grateful with is what my Supervisors have done for me. Since I've only been employed as a Permanent Full Time from my work for about 3 months I'm unable to get some benefits that my Work gives to their employees for maternity leave and I'm only allowed 6 weeks of leave too. 6 Weeks is really short for taking care of a newborn but I also can't abandon my work, I have too many responsibilities to even consider not working. My Assistant Supervisor who is a very sweet and caring person is giving me 2 weeks of her Annual Leave so I could stay with my newborn for 8 weeks. What an amazing person!

On top of that, it requires for my Supervisor to approve and submit the request to the HR Dept to get this things done and scheduled. The Note or Justification that my Supervisor wrote to the HR almost had me in tears. I feel so special reading it and I'm so lucky to even have them as my bosses. Although It's not yet sure if HR will allow it but the thought that my bosses go beyond to make this happen is enough for me.

I can't thank them enough for doing this to me. I don't know why I deserve such treatment but this is something to be really grateful for and why you have to look forward everyday with Hope. There are always some great people out there who are ready to help you in times of need blood related or not.