Saturday, June 25, 2016

Life has been crazy

I haven't blog for awhile. I've been so per-occupied I can't even think of what to do first. I have been back to work since end of March and it has been stressful as it is however this time, I feel so beaten up. I feel like drowning. My baby also started daycare the moment I started work. There were some instances where I was close into pulling her off of daycare. She is now well-adjusted with Daycare but I lost my Good-night sleeper in exchange.

My little family has been struggling a lot since I went back to work, It's been really a nightmare. Reason, why I can't find a time to even sit and relax and write something up. I've been so down lately and I'm scared that I might go into depression. But one thing I'm sure is building up on me is the Anxiety.

The only thing that keeps me going is my Baby. Those moments when I look at her face her smile and just the entirety of her being alive in this world keeps me from breaking down.

In the lighter side, my baby is 5 Months Old today. Time Flies! and Hopefully, I'll be able to get back on posting more on my blog again.

Here she is now:

Thanks for stopping by and reading my short blog. =D

Monday, February 29, 2016

It was All But a Blur

This month has been a roller coaster for me there has been a lot of Adjusting, Sleep Deprivation, Taking care of a new human being and etc.

I feel so scattered-brain that I can't even focus on what to write. However, I'm hoping that I will get my groove back. Right now, my main focus is my daughter. The only time I get to relax is when she's sleeping and my mind is completely overwhelmed that I need to unwind and collect myself.

I admit it's not easy having a newborn and I have my moments and bouts of sadness but whenever I look at her it all make sense again. I guess this is what they call being a mom.

Anyway, here are some Highlights for this month and end of January:

**End of January: Our Furbaby celebrated his 3rd Bday 01.30.16
Our Furbaby, "Neo"

**02.07 - My 29th Birthday and I receive the most special gift in the world, my daughter.
**Celebrated my Birthday a week before it with my fellow Birthday Peeps, Brother-in-Law and his Wife.
**2016 is a Leap Year which means February has 29 Days.
**Lastly, my Daughter turned 1 Month Old this month. oh! how time flies. She already knows how to stare

A glimpse of my Little One:
Her First Valentines Day!
Since Newborn photo sessions was not on our budget I decided to do it myself, it may not look as good as a professional but I think it turned out great.
This is actually a smile that I first captured on my phone.
 And this is her now at 1 Month Old.

Can't believe that it has been a month since she was born in this world. Spending all the waking and sleeping hours I have with her until I go back to work. ='(

Until next time... See you all next month! =D

Friday, January 29, 2016

My Birth Story

Baby's overdue at 40 weeks + 6 Days and I was scheduled for an induction at 12:15AM (01/25).

I came in the hospital at 4CM Dilated at around 3 AM a little doze of Pitocin was started but there was no changes or labor pains at all.

At around 8AM my OB came in and broke my water almost instantly I felt some contractions. They were strong but tolerable. I was check again at 9AM and I progress to a 6. Since then the contractions began to get stronger and stronger until at around 10 AM, it was so intense that I'm starting to doubt myself. Michael was asking me if I need pain meds, although I doubted myself at that moment I stayed firm with my decision to do it naturally.

The nurse came back and check me since I was literally screaming every contractions at that point, low and behold I was a 9 1/2 cm. I told her I really feel like pushing and that the only thing that is making things very painful is because I'm holding off it off and feeling in the contractions. She called my OB and asked me to start pushing..

I started pushing at around 10ish and for some reason pushing really felt good and made the painful contractions go away.

Pushing lasted for almost an hour and at 11:15 AM "Little Miss" came out to this world screaming as they put her on my chest it felt surreal that it's almost as if I'm dreaming. I actually blurted that she's so tiny and My OB, and two nurses both said "No, She's not!"

Riley Mckenzie was Born naturally without any pain-free medication on January 25th.
Labor Duration: Around 3 Hrs
Weight: 8.1 lbs
Length: 20 1/2 Inches